misplaced

Ever find yourself in a familiar place a lil' bit confused?
That you seem to know where you are, and you're trying to remember where, but you can't quite figure it out, as if you're lost.. uhm no, you're not exactly lost, its more like misplaced, as if you misplaced yourself.
Everythings fine, theres no tragedies, things are flowing none the less you're in a hurry and can't exactly move or decide which direction to take, cause you can't find yourself.
Annoyed and desperate hours later of searching every corner within, moving stuff around, reorganizing junk and trying to remember where you left yourself. You give up, stay put and you have 2 options either bring yourself down, complaign about how you can't possibly remember something so essential or you make the best of it, grab a close ice cream and enjoy wholly.
Surprisinly if you take the road less traveled, you reach your back pocket and notice its right there!!!! right in your pocket all along and it all becomes clearer, but now you're not in such a hurry, cause you've found a whole new set of things to do and things makes more sense now.

Ever find yourself misplaced in the familiarest place of all?
see i have and i know eventually it all summens up to the basics,
but in ocasions all we want is to complaign and spoil ourselves a bit, and then remember that eventually...

magic

"Magic is believing in yourself, if you can do that, you can make ."

"Whatever you think you can do or believe you can do, begin! Action has magic, grace and power in it."

"Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion."

"There's a bit of magic in everything, and some loss to even things out."

"This world, after all our sciences, is still a miracle; wonderful, inscrutable, magical and more, to whosoever will think of it."

"The thing with magic is. You've got to know it's here, all around us, or it just stays invisible for you."

secrets...

No matter how good you are at keeping a secrets, they can't hide for long. They have a special way of exposing themselves and stripping us bare. They take control over us and seem to always find a way to pile up more until your so full of them you feel like you're going to burst.
The problem with secrets is whatever it is we're trying to hide, we're never ready for that moment when the truth gets naked and when you think you're in control, you're not."

If we decide to keep secrets is up to us, but its like meredith said:
"The thing we forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open, like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore."

questions

how do we control the uncontrollable?
how do we tame what's within?
or can we change it?
is it worth it?
do we want to?
can we manage?
is their some kind of process?
do we really wanna try?
can we handle the results?
are they interchangeable?
perhaps unreversable?
but is it all administrable?

acceptance..

every situation and grief have 4 steps:

denial

anger

depression

acceptance

we should all be so clever to jump straight to the 4rth,
and avoid all the other unnessary, painful obstacles in the way
and simply accept things and hold on, the solution is in your hands.

imitation

imitation is the best form of flattery....

tonight..

wonder..

Don't wonder why people go crazy. Wonder why they don't. In face of what we can lose in a day, in an instant, wonder what the hell it is that make us hold it together.
-meredith grey

Chin up.
Put your shoulders back.
Walk proud.
Strut a little.
Don't lick your wounds: celebrate them.
The scars you bear are the signs of a competitor.
You're in a lion fight.
Just because you didn't win doesn't mean you don't know how to roar.

surreal

its surreal,
all of this:

this moment,

this call,

this day,

this dream come true..

its all so surreal
to share this with u
to watch words come to life
to finally have what you wanted!

=)

para ti, para nosotras...

Say - John Mayer

Take all of your wasted honor.
Every little past frustration.
Take all of your so called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations.

Say what you need to say (x8)

Walkin' like a one man army,
Fightin' with the shadows in your head.
Livin' up the same old moment
Knowin' you'd be better off instead
If you could only...

Say what you need to say (x8)

Have no fear for givin' in.
Have no fear for giving over.
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much,
than never to say what you need to say again.

Even if your hands are shaking,
And your faith is broken.
Even as the eyes are closin',
Do it with a heart wide open.

Say what you need to say (x7)

Say what you need to,
Say what you need to...
Say what you need to say.

cerca..

te saque de la monotonia

y celebramos tu triunfo
compartimos un rato
hablamos un poco
tomaste mi mano

y me diste un abrazo.

no todo esta bien
pero mas cerca estamos ....

una cancion...

no te a pasado que en el momento mas extraño y menos esperado la vida te regala una cancion?
te dedica las letras con una melodia que curiosamente te identifica?
tomando una cancion antes escuchada pero que ahora se vuelve tuya?
que curioso no?

me dejo llevar..

me dejo llevar por el viento
volar con lo que siento
correr con el tiempo
y abrazar el momento.

me dejo llevar por el viento
recojer el terreno
conocer sus misterios
y escuchar sus secretos

me dejo llevar por el viento
inventando aventuras
compartiendo emociones
conociendo temores
y cometiendo locuras..

pense

tu palabras
me hacen pensar
en que es lo realmente piensas
sera que yo pense que eras mi amigo
y tu peinsas que soy compania?

pensar que pienses eso
no me deja ni pensar
porque pense que sabias
pense que eras mas...

sentir que ya no siento..

sentir que ya no siento
me hace sonreir
me deja recordar
me confirma que puedo,
que todo lo dije es cierto
que nada es imposible

sentir que ya no siento
me enorgullece
me deja perdonar
me recuerda los momentos,
que ahora no afectan
que todo evoluciona

sentir que ya no siento
me reafirma que siento
me da consuelo
me llena de fuerzas
para sentir de nuevo

todo se transforma...

Cada uno da lo que recibe
y luego recibe lo que da,
nada es mas simple,
no hay otra norma:
nada se pierde,
todo se transforma.

-Jorge Drexler

anoche..

anoche te llame
nose como
pero lo hice.
justo cuando hablaba de ti,
apareciste...

hubiera querido
buscar tus manos
y decirte tanto
pero no lo hice
no tuve tiempo.

grace..

I'm on my knees /only memories/are left for me to hold/Dont know how /but Ill get by/Slowly pull myself together/Theres no escape/So keep me safe/ This feels so unreal/Nothing comes easily/Fill this empty space /Nothing is like it seems/Turn my grief to grace/I feel the cold/oneliness unfold/Like from another world/Come what may/I wont fade away/But I know I might change/Nothing comes easily /Fill this empty space/Nothing is like it was/Turn my grief to grace/Nothing comes easily/Where do I begin?/Nothing can bring me peace/Ive lost everything /I just want to feel your embrace

rando

i cant find the words to define that night, u managed to make it more than magical, filled with intesity and your mischieviousness, i can't explain how i felt.
only that it took me back to that place we're once only you and the guitar played.

te quiero amigo

Vision

Vision without action is a dream.

Action without vision is simply passing the time.

Action with Vision is making a positive difference.
--Joel Barker

hard..

everything in this life worth having, takes up work, patience, dedication and improvisation. and its hard!! but all we need is to believe cause nothing magnificent has ever been achieved by those who dont believe, but by those who dare and who know inside their superior to circumstance. and thats harder!! but to remember at times that there are no mistakes in getting what u want, only things we bring upon ourselves that are neccesarry in order for us to learn and reach the places we've chosen to go , uff this is the hardest!!! and although people can bring you down and help u give up, always remember one of the greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you can't do! and thats the best part.

con robi!

...

people wanna be tough, its all about their pride and being rough around the edges and hardcore or at least thats what they want u to think. we find it so hard to ask for help unless its absolutely necessary. but deep down it isn’t just about being tough it’s about acceptance, about giving yourself permision to let your guard down, as long as you choose your moments wisely and about allowing yourself to be close to someone.
when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. be ourselves and let go at times but we tend to keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, to act as if nothing ever means anything, but it's usually a load of bull.
i really think we should pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, stick close by, no matter how much we hurt them or the circumstances.
the people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping
and sure, sometimes close can be too close.
but sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.

i..

i left out so many things
i held on too strong
i set u free
i never thought it would end like this
theres always time for everything in life
but its easier to run than fight
i guess

a gift..

pain

Pain,
you just have to ride it out,
hope it goes away on its own,
hope the wound that caused it heals.
There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside.
Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.

-meredith grey

...

La mayor rémora de la vida es la espera del mañana y la pérdida del día de hoy.

let it be..

..and when the night is cloudy,
there is still a light that shines on me,
shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
i wake up to the sound of music
whisper words of wisdom, let it be
there will be an answer, let it be.
let it be...

-the beatles

hiding..

casted away

caught up
so much to do

not enough time

wrapped in papers

camouflaging thoughts

feelings in disguise

masks of uncertainty

stealing yourself away

seem familiar?

ur'e hiding!

to better days and get aways!

to great friends
and irreplaceable feelings
to coutless laughs
and incredible memories
to the unexpected
and unforgetable moments
to better days and get aways!

betrayal..

Betrayal is at times not intended, misunderstood and complicated.
In some ways, betrayal is inevitable.
But when we betray each other, it all becomes a blur, we lose track and the path to recovery is less clear. We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust that was lost, to fix what we broke or to find the way back.
Then we try to make up for what we did, find forgiveness and try to heal open wounds but there are some wounds, some betrayals... that are so deep, so profound that there is no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait... eventually time heals, i believe!

es posible...

es posible que robes mis suenos
que vuelvas tuyos momentos ajenos
que falsifiques emociones
que juegues a la ignorancia
que alegues indiferencia
y que sufras de amnesia

es posible que encuentres cumplirlos
que te aduenes de ellos
que manipules tus sentimientos
que ganes desprecio
que encuentres desaire
detras de tu arrogancia
que ya no encuentres lo que tanto despreciaste
y no te quede mas que rendirte

y es posible que todo esto te abrume
que llene tus dias de humillaciones
y que el dolor sea irreconciliable
que reconozcas tu errores
que estes preparado para lo que viene
que entiendas que te lo mereces
que esperes lo peor.

y es posible que lo logres
que tranquilizes las cosas
y encuentres como aquietarte
pero de nada te sirve..
pretender ser valiente
reclamar afecto
forzar aliento
y exigir consuelo
si pretendes volver hacerlo

march 8

hoy fue tan facil sonreir, hasta las estrellas salieron para mi.
haciendo de mi dia una aventura que solo yo conoci...

thank u...

invite...

open..

close your eyes
take a deep a breath
squeeze your fingers
dont stare at the floor
ignore appearance
forget the insecurities
set aside your worries
hold yourself together
and open
open wide
take some caution
simply play along
by the rules
and break one or two
try something new
get lost in the way
hide along the road
make sure they find u
carry on
embrace the present
and open
open away
jump any which way
dance freely
let loose
amuse oneself
dare to dream
revel away

have some attitude
bee yourself
and open
open up

sideways..

troubled by walking forward, of moving on

i stopped myself..

cant i just stop and walk sideways for a while?

take a little time off and enjoy the scenery

can i swing sideways to... what's not necesarrily right?

and learn from my mistakes

can't i make an adventure up and close my eyes?

just for a while

troubled by walking forward, of moving on

i stopped myself,

took a break for a while

i'm swinging sideways...

-picture me by marijo

a glass

There's something to be said about a glass half full,

about knowing when to say when.

I think it's more of a floating line, a barometer of need.

Of desire.

It's entirely up to the individual, and it depends what's being poured.

Sometimes all we want is a taste.

Other times there's no such thing as enough, the glass is bottomless...

all we want is more."

-meredith grey

let go...

let go of
yesterdays mistakes
past months regrets
and last years conclusions

let go of
old worries
cause tomorrow will have new ones

just let go and
find new things
enjoy the difference
make the best of anything

disapointed

i cant put it into words
this mess i carry with,
and even if i could i wouldn't spell them out.

im just disapointed!
i guess...

miracle...

why people lie, taken away by pride,why they struggle with the truth, why we disagree,

why people live and die, why they hurt and get hurt is a mystery. we want to know the reason, the secret, the answer at the back of the book… because the thought of our being all alone down here is just too much for us to bear. but at the end of the day, the fact that we show up for each other, in spite our differences, no matter what we believe, to laugh away our troubles, to smile back at problems and to simply let it all out is reason enough to keep believing that life is clearly an inexplicable miracle.

days..

Some days ... the whole world seems upside down.

And then somehow, and probably, anyday

the world rights itself again.

no y otra vez no!
aunque peinses que si
y otros crean que si,
no!
no simplemente no
porque aunque trate de volverlo un si
para encontrar explicaciones a mi otros no
sencillamente no!

y no porque quise sino porque fue asi
ya es muy tarde
todo cambio
y realmente no!

como asi?!!

como asi?
que nada es nada
que el ayer y el hoy son iguales
como si el tiempo no cambiara las cosas.

como asi?
que las cosas pierden importancia
y tomamos todo a la ligera
como si ya nada tuviera relevancia.

como asi?
que cambiamos todo porque es mas facil.
intercambiamos carino, pasion y amor
por lo mas cerca que tengamos.

como asi!!!!
sera que ya simplemente somos pero no somos nosotros mismos?
o sera que simplemente rendirnos es menos doloroso que luchar?

silencio

rodeada de mentiras,
miradas de doble cara
y palabras sin sentido
con significados invertidos.

acorralada por comparaciones,
provocadas por imitaciones
y celos inexplicables
como si de competencia se tratara
con reglas de suposiciones
jugadores involuntarios
y ganadores chantajistas.
que no entiendo.

asustada,
enojada
y resignada
prefiero solo hacer silencio..

It is a profitable thing,

if one is wise,

to seem foolish.

la espera..

Estar preparado es importante,
saber esperar lo es aún más,
pero aprovechar el momento adecuado
es la clave de la vida.

Happy New Year!!

different! thats my word for this year, for the night. cause no matter the plans we made, the people we're with, the night took an unexpected twist
in the most diferent, complicated, crazy way and amidst it all we had fun!
but at the end of a day like this, when so many prayers we're answered and so many aren’t, we take our miracles where we find them, hope for the best and make the best out of anything!

2007..

this year its been a hell of a whirlwind, i dont think i'de ever done so much in a year, i'd haven't felt so many things, and things have changed incredibly. amidst all i've been happy, gratefull and sorrounded by amazing people.

i dont believe in resolutions, so heres my reflections:
happiness is a state of mind, transitory, something u work for, you fight for and something you u prize yourself with and you make it happen, it doesnt magically come around. happiness is not necessarily getting what you want is been in total peace with yourself and being gratefull for what u have. gratitude has nothing to do with joy, being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. appreciating small victories. admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. i' m thankful for the familiar things i know and for the things i'll never know. for prayers answered and so many that aren’t, for dreams and the power of making them come true.
believe in yourself, fight your own battles, and if you can't find a reason to celebrate, fact is to have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.

Happy New Year!!

all u have to do is beLieve!!

education!

Every situation... is a test. A chance for us to demonstrate how much we know. And how much more we have to learn.

mum

eres mas que todo lo demas!
y creo q nunca e podido decirtelo como quisiera..

pero es asi
eres mi guia, mi luz y mi inspiracion
simplemente mas.

tequiero!

hoy tengo la ligera impression...

...que sol traera en su sombra positividaddd!!
Y es que quiero comenzar la noche siento una buena actitud increibles sensaciones que no tienen similitud ya se siente en el ambiente ven siente el Ritmo y el Calorrr!!!

y es que quiero comenzar la noche siento una buena actitud!!

y es que quiero comenzar la noche siento una buena actitud!!!

forever young..

In some ways we grow up; we have families... we get married, divorced... but for the most part we still have the same problems that we did when we were fifteen. No matter how much we grow taller, grow older, we are still forever stumbling... forever wondering, forever... young.

-meredith grey

ruddy me dijo que...

... cualquier cosa se logra con una sola mirada...

pq cuando la mirada es sincera vale mas que mil palabras ;)

uijo...

happy... is any day with u

friend!

extra happy birth-day!

recuerdo

tomo el volante, enciendo el radio

y suena esa tan familiar cancion y solo...

recuerdo ,
haber cerrado los ojos cuando debi mirar mas fijo,
apretar tan fuerte cuando debi de soltar completamente,
haberme recostado cuando debi de estar parada,
brincar murallas que debi de haber tumbado,
dejarme llevar y no seguir mis instintos.
recuerdo, tantas cosas .

y mientras finaliza la cancion
me alegro que solo son recuerdos,
puedo sonreir, mirar atras y agradecer que ya todo termino.

forgive and forget...

do we forgive those who offended us? can we put things aside when we've been hurt? and simple forgive and forget? do we even know what it means?

its been said that forgiveness is the mental, and/or spiritual process of ceasing to feel resentment, indignation or anger against another person for something done to us, people find these so hard to do when the truth is people make mistakes, we all make mistakes. lines are crossed, games are played, things are said, lies are told and people get hurt, double crossed or betrayed. it's impossible to go through life without hurting someone, even without really wanting to. and were left with nothing more than to forgive, although some believe resentment or revenge arise power or satisfaction, i differ. because without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget.

friend

i wish i could take it all away
and fast forward to how things change.
i wish i could have all the answers for u
and help you understand.
i wish i could heal your scars
and make it all better again.

ohh! i wish. we wish!
but as we wish, i'll make u a promise:
to tell u all i can, to listen and hold your hand.
to wait, to fight, and to conquer.
to be there, to leave and to stick by u.

i promise just to, be your friend.
always...

options..

Sunday night, after a long tensed night, not necesarily mine, but it got me thinking on things and how we complicate every ounce of our existance, with little things like the color of our car, what to get for lunch, what were gonna wear, and among all these options we always generally end up
pushing away the right thing or wanting most the one thing we can't have.
Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. It blocks our sight, and manages to destroy the rest and confuses us. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be.
The people who suffer the most, are those who don't know what they want.

giving up..

im giving up... just beacuse the sun turned on me
the stars ceased to come out and play
and i'm exhausted...

i'm giving up the fight, the quest, hope, the dreams. im giving it all away to someone who wants it, who cant hold it for me, so i can just take a break and do something else for a while.

cure

The cure to anything is salt water: sweat, tears & the sea.