november

these couple of months i havent found words to write, can't seem to explain to myself how i feel
i'm distracted, ive tried new things, i'm numb, bored, careless, i dont wanna do much,
i cant seem to decide on things
is this what growing up feels like? maybe i'm just out of place?
or perhaps i'm trying something way too different?
i dont seem to know much about anything...

paths

Sometimes it happens in an instance. We step up, we see a path forward. 
We see a path and we take it. 

Even when we have no idea where we're going.

words

Words are, in my not so humble opinion, the most inexhaustible source of magic; 
capable of both inflicting injury and remedying it.


-Albus Dumbledore

mentimos

no se, que fue lo que paso?
cada día mientras escucho a la gente hablar, no entiendo
ni se, en que preciso momento fue que llegamos aquí
cuando fue que el amor se volvió efímero, nos dieron derecho a juzgar,
las excusas se hicieron aceptables, nos hicimos expertos en todo y la soledad se volvió codiciada?

no se, pero aveces pienso que simplemente, mentimos...

so they say...

Just when we think we figured things out, the universe throws us a curveball. 
So, we have to improvise. We find happiness in unexpected places. 
We find ourselves back to the things that matter the most. The universe is funny that way. 
Sometimes it just has a way of making sure we wind up exactly where we belong.

state of mind..

"Meh" is an interjection, often used as an expression of apathy, indifference, or boredom.

sometimes being different becomes tiredsome and normal seems so much more relaxing...

que decepción...

aunque mi cuerpo ande por aquí mi cabeza ronda por otros lugares
donde las cosas no son tan complicadas y las cosas se dicen como son.
y nada mas importa

que decepción...

vitamins and nothing...

We are responsible with our lives, we have jobs, pay taxes but we are not able to give advice to ourselves.
The problem is we blow all advice in work or friends. In our own lives, we can't think things through.
We don't make the sound choice, we did that all day for someone elses life. When it comes to ourselves, we've got nothing left but to do the irrational. 
but is it worth it—being responsible? because if take your vitamins and pay your taxes and never cut the line, the universe still gives you people to love and then lets them slip through your fingers like water, and what've you got?
Vitamins and nothing.

remember!

                                                                               there are far better things ahead than any we leave behind...

security!

security is a tricky thing
sure we all want it, yet no one wants to be the one giving it
because those are usually the ones taken for granted
so we create complications for ourselves in order to avoid it
and pretend we're careless to avoid being the one giving in
but either way its a struggle,
because no matter what we do, at the end of the day all we want is to feel safe in someone elses arms...

new beginnings...

People are really romantic about the beginnings of things.
Fresh start. Clean slate. A world of possibility. 
But no matter what adventure you're embarking on, you're still you. 
You bring you into every new beginning in your life, so how different can it possibly be..


It's all anybody wants, right? 
Clean slate. A new beginning. 
Like that's gonna be any easier. 
Ask the guy pushing the boulder up the hill.
 Nothing's easy about starting over. Nothing at all.


-meredith grey

saying it again

seems like the year of the unexpected...

=/

adapting is harder than i thought...

i surrender!

the song says it best...

i'm tired of all my sad stories

i'm finished with my fear

i'm going kamikaze in the new year

i close my eyes to remember

where your lashes meet your cheeks

i stay in bed all afternoon

surrender

get some pleasure from my...

i found your old photograph

i remember you in it

but mostly i remember myself when i took it

another year is folding up

and all the stars you see above

are stars i still haven't met yet

surrender

get some pleasure from my

pleasure...get some...

'cause endings and beginnings 

are for people who love winning

and ours is a cold world

there's a course in miracles

i'm thinking of enrolling

'cause i'm not playing this game anymore

buenos aires se ve tan susceptible...

caminando por las calles de palermo ni se lo que siento no existe la palabra,

solo suena en mi cabeza aquella cancion de cerati que dice:

"me veras volar 

por la ciudad de la furia

donde nadie sabe de mi

y yo soy parte de todo"

y ciertamente a sido asi, buenos aires es impactante

y no hay mejor manera de describirla 

 le debo el mejor ano de mi vida 

es triste pensar que ya no despertare aqui

que todo vuelve a cambiar

pero es asi, lo unico constante es el cambio

 detesto las despedidas, pero esta definitivamente es la peor

aunque llevo conmigo mas que recuerdos

un pedacito que es mio de aqui

realmente desde mis ojos

buenos aires se ve... tan susceptible...

...they make it look so easy, connecting with another human being, as if nobody told them it's the hardest thing in the world...

-dexter

esta noche...

tengo ganas de perderme y vivir una nueva aventura
que me complique todos mis dias y sacuda mi cabeza..

today is a sad day,
i've started living the beginning of the end here...

inexplicable freedom!

if i had to choose a word to describe this moment it would be freedom which  i looked up and found that is defined as the state of being free or at liberty rather than in confinement or under physical restraint but then when I come to think of it it's really more, this is inexplicable freedom....