2007..

this year its been a hell of a whirlwind, i dont think i'de ever done so much in a year, i'd haven't felt so many things, and things have changed incredibly. amidst all i've been happy, gratefull and sorrounded by amazing people.

i dont believe in resolutions, so heres my reflections:
happiness is a state of mind, transitory, something u work for, you fight for and something you u prize yourself with and you make it happen, it doesnt magically come around. happiness is not necessarily getting what you want is been in total peace with yourself and being gratefull for what u have. gratitude has nothing to do with joy, being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. appreciating small victories. admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. i' m thankful for the familiar things i know and for the things i'll never know. for prayers answered and so many that aren’t, for dreams and the power of making them come true.
believe in yourself, fight your own battles, and if you can't find a reason to celebrate, fact is to have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.

Happy New Year!!

all u have to do is beLieve!!

education!

Every situation... is a test. A chance for us to demonstrate how much we know. And how much more we have to learn.

mum

eres mas que todo lo demas!
y creo q nunca e podido decirtelo como quisiera..

pero es asi
eres mi guia, mi luz y mi inspiracion
simplemente mas.

tequiero!

hoy tengo la ligera impression...

...que sol traera en su sombra positividaddd!!
Y es que quiero comenzar la noche siento una buena actitud increibles sensaciones que no tienen similitud ya se siente en el ambiente ven siente el Ritmo y el Calorrr!!!

y es que quiero comenzar la noche siento una buena actitud!!

y es que quiero comenzar la noche siento una buena actitud!!!

forever young..

In some ways we grow up; we have families... we get married, divorced... but for the most part we still have the same problems that we did when we were fifteen. No matter how much we grow taller, grow older, we are still forever stumbling... forever wondering, forever... young.

-meredith grey

ruddy me dijo que...

... cualquier cosa se logra con una sola mirada...

pq cuando la mirada es sincera vale mas que mil palabras ;)

uijo...

happy... is any day with u

friend!

extra happy birth-day!

recuerdo

tomo el volante, enciendo el radio

y suena esa tan familiar cancion y solo...

recuerdo ,
haber cerrado los ojos cuando debi mirar mas fijo,
apretar tan fuerte cuando debi de soltar completamente,
haberme recostado cuando debi de estar parada,
brincar murallas que debi de haber tumbado,
dejarme llevar y no seguir mis instintos.
recuerdo, tantas cosas .

y mientras finaliza la cancion
me alegro que solo son recuerdos,
puedo sonreir, mirar atras y agradecer que ya todo termino.

forgive and forget...

do we forgive those who offended us? can we put things aside when we've been hurt? and simple forgive and forget? do we even know what it means?

its been said that forgiveness is the mental, and/or spiritual process of ceasing to feel resentment, indignation or anger against another person for something done to us, people find these so hard to do when the truth is people make mistakes, we all make mistakes. lines are crossed, games are played, things are said, lies are told and people get hurt, double crossed or betrayed. it's impossible to go through life without hurting someone, even without really wanting to. and were left with nothing more than to forgive, although some believe resentment or revenge arise power or satisfaction, i differ. because without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we’ll be lucky enough to forget.

friend

i wish i could take it all away
and fast forward to how things change.
i wish i could have all the answers for u
and help you understand.
i wish i could heal your scars
and make it all better again.

ohh! i wish. we wish!
but as we wish, i'll make u a promise:
to tell u all i can, to listen and hold your hand.
to wait, to fight, and to conquer.
to be there, to leave and to stick by u.

i promise just to, be your friend.
always...

options..

Sunday night, after a long tensed night, not necesarily mine, but it got me thinking on things and how we complicate every ounce of our existance, with little things like the color of our car, what to get for lunch, what were gonna wear, and among all these options we always generally end up
pushing away the right thing or wanting most the one thing we can't have.
Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out. It blocks our sight, and manages to destroy the rest and confuses us. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be.
The people who suffer the most, are those who don't know what they want.

giving up..

im giving up... just beacuse the sun turned on me
the stars ceased to come out and play
and i'm exhausted...

i'm giving up the fight, the quest, hope, the dreams. im giving it all away to someone who wants it, who cant hold it for me, so i can just take a break and do something else for a while.

cure

The cure to anything is salt water: sweat, tears & the sea.

change..

yo tengo 2 semanas con un draft.. about change y de alguna manera no lograba encontrar la direccion sobre lo que queria decir, but last night someone did it for me y aqui esta:

Change is inevitable.

new tHings are created, procedures are updated,

levels of expertise increase.

innovAtion is everything, nothing remains the same for long.

We either adapt to change, or ... we get left behind.

chaNge; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming.

And it hurts to Grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying.

but heres the truth: the morE things change, the more they stay the same.

And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good.

Oh, sometimes, change is ... everything.

-meredith grey

here!

somebody sent me a secret,

i decided to share it with u

here!

improvise..

They say practice makes perfect, but how can we excell in something we can't practice?
how do we master the unknown? how do we know if we have what it takes to complete the task, to pass the test or be the first in class when theres noone teaching the lesson?

might as well improvise then...

i and u

i look
u stare

i dance
u stand

i smile
u smoke

i stand
u sit

i wait
u wait
for what exactly?
can't i and u just get along..

c.e.

I just need something to happen, I need a sign that things are going to change. I need a reason to go on. I need some hope! And in the abscence of hope, I need to stay in bed cause sometimes doing something is worse than doing nothing.

hoy!

si hoy a diferencia de ayer te tomo de la mano, te quedas a jugar entre mis dedos y escapas de la rutina a mi lado?
si hoy a diferencia de ayer te abrazo, me envolverias en el momento y me llevas a volar?

si hoy cambio de opinion y te robo un beso, me regalas otro a cambio de aquello q me pediste?

pero no vayas a acostumbrarte demasiado porque solo se de hoy, no se manana o pasado sea igual solo se que hoy cambie de opinion y quiero envolverme en tu veneno... y vivir solo el momento.

te animas?

question...

If something that we didn’t know we had disappears... do we miss it?

some things..

Some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say because you have no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.

llena de nada

hoy me encontraron
nada mas que tus
palabras...

wait

someone said, good things comes to those who wait...

everything happens for a reason

i cant remember how many times i've had to say this to myself this month, and in moments its made me stronger, dissapointed, hopeful, even mad and then as i thought about it, if everything happens for a reason wheres my reason i cant seem to find it, i think it lost track of me, or it took a vacation and its letting it all just happen. but then again, it can all be a big reason waiting just the right time to surprise me. i cant decide.. truth is when the worst has happen, clinging to hope is all we've got left.

if you take...

- 2 silly girls
- a store

- a dressing room

- camara
- and a saturday afternoon with nothing to do,
this is what u get.. =p

esto...

y es que esto que me envuelve, que me inquieta, que me atormenta ,

esto que me abraza con todas sus fuerzas y que ya no me deja respirar,

esto que solo tengo yo... esto, ya no se donde esconderlo

you

you (frɛnd/ –noun/ syn): accomplice, acquaintance, ally, alter ego, amigo, associate, best friend, boon companion,booster, brother, buddy, confidant, companion, comrade, confrere, constant, dear friend,defender, devoted, encourager, escort, fellow, intimate, main man, pal, partner, schoolmate, sidekick, soul mate, supporter, trusted, well-wisher

Expectations.

Expectation is to hope, to wait, to look forward to, a prospect or a probability of something.
In life we all think we’re going to be great, we set our minds with possibilities and expectations for ourselves and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations sell us short or dont meet.
And the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected.
But too often, the thing you want most is the one thing you can't have. Desire leaves us nothing
but heartbroken, it wears us out. Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can be.
The people who suffer the most, are those who don't know what they want in life, who haven't even consired it. And still i dont understand, but it got me to wonder, why we cling to our expectations? why we allow ourselves to asume things? maybe because the expected is just what keeps us steady, standing, still, the expected's just the beginning... the unexpected is what changes our lives.
So we make plans, with a back-up. But the thing about plans is they don't take into account the unexpected, so when we're thrown a curve ball, in life, we have to improvise. Of course, some of us are better at it than others. Some of us just have to move on to plan B and make the best of it. And sometimes what we want is exactly what we need. But sometimes, what we need is just a new plan and to expect the unexpected.

im gonna go walking

im gonna go walking

away from it all

away from the words
away from the truth
away from the noise

away from the song
away from the lies
away from the secrets
away from the memories
away from the pain
away from the grudges
away from the wounds
away from the insecurities
away from the mystery
away from the dreams
away from the games
away from the rules
away fron the laughs


im gonna walking
away from it all
to find new adventures
and face some fears
to fight new battles
and surrender when required
to make new sandcastles
and find my long lost ....nevermind


im gonna go walking
away from it all
to that place where i belong

...

hay veces..
que te grito
pero no me escuchas

te abrazo
pero no te siento

que te veo
pero no me miras

que te busco
y no te encuentro
y hasta en mis suenios intento atraparte
para que jugemos aquel viejo juego...

te extrano amigo

tu libro..

Si por un dia fueras un libro...
me dejarias hojearte?
curiosiar la resena?
sentir tus hojas?
o tan solo deleitarme con la ilustracion de tu portada?
pero es que con esto no me bastaria..

como seria si pudiera leerte?
narrarias plenamente lo que sientes?
relataras aventuras de algun lugar lejano?
contarias la historia de un corazon con cicatrizes ajenas?
peliarias batallas de nunca acabar?
talvez me describieras una novela de un amor prohibido?
o seria totalmente diferente...
escribieras un libro de suenos, fantasias, y lugares magicos el cual solo contigo se volviera realidad?
como seria?

pero sabes que tan solo quisiera hojearte... y quien sabe talves me seas interesante.

i belong here..

i belong here where the sun sets, the wind blows, and water runs indefinitely..

my bestfriends wedding...

lines

decision, decisions, decisions. no matter what people tell you, how you feel, or whats right or not at some point, you have to make a decision. boundaries don't keep other people out. they fence you in. life is messy. that's how we're made. lines are there for a reason. for security, for clarity. if you choose to cross the line, you pretty much do so at your own risk. So why is it that the bigger the line, the greater the temptation to cross it? we cant help ourselves. when we see a line we want to cross it. maybe it’s the thrill of the unfamiliar, a sort of personal dare. the only problem is once that you’ve crossed, it’s almost impossible to go back. decisions have consequences.but, if you do manage to make it back across the line, you find safety in numbers.
so, you can waste your lives drawing lines. or you can live your life crossing them.
but there are some lines... some lines that are way too dangerous to cross!

back...

heres a summary...

thanku all for making it special! =p

i'mm off

off somewhere celebrating, spending time with my friends, dancing, playing cranium, receiving bday calls, fun at the beach, having bday cake, presents, getting a little bit older,

im off, off somewhere... celebrating 22!

andy warhol @ MAM

just dance!!!

You know this boogie is for real.
I used to buy my faith in worship,

But then my chance to get to heaven slipped.

I used to worry about the future

But then I throw my caution into the wind.
I had no reason to be care free

No no no, until I took a trip to the other side of town

Yeah yeah yeah, you know I heard that boogie
Hey- I had no choice but to get down down down down

Dance, nothing left for me to do but dance

Off these bad times Im going through just dance
Got canned heat in my heals tonight baby

I feel the thunder see the lightning

I know this angers heaven sent.

So Ive got to hang out all my hang-ups

Because of the boogie I feel so hell bent
Its just an instant gut reaction, that I got
I know I never ever felt like this before,
I dont know what to do
But then thats nothing new,

Stuck between hell and high water
Need a cure to make it through.

Hey- dancing nothing left for me to do but dance
Off these bad times Im going through just dance,

Hey got canned heat in my heals tonight baby

You know know know Im gonna dance yeah

All the nasty things that people say.

Dance yeah, but Im gonna make it anyway,
Dance, yeah, got canned heat in my heels

Tonight baby, you know I got canned heat in my heels.

You know this boogie is for real.

Only the wind can hold the answers,

And she cries to me when Im asleep.

She says you know that you can go much faster,

I know that peoples talk can be so cheap,

heyhey,Ive got this voodoo child inveined on me,

Im gonna use my power to assend

You know Ive got these boogie heels to use,

Sunshine theres no way to lose.

I was born to walk and built to last.

Youve never seen my feet cos theyre movin to fast.

Dance yeh, nothing left for me to do but dance,
All these bad times Im going thru just dance,
Just dance yeh, canned in my heals tonight baby.
Hey Ive gon t dance yeh, all the nasty things that people say.
Dance yeh but Im gonna make it anyway.
Dance yeh, got canned heat in my heels tonight baby.

You now this boogie is for real,
Got so much canned heat in my heels yeh,

Gonna dance, gonna dance my blues away tonight
Dance!!!

(thanxs gigi gor dancing with me in da street

i luv to have u always there

with me and enjoy my song)

moments...

Do you have these intense moments

when something is about to happen

and you feel that something

very important is coming up

like a strange coincidence which isn't really a coincidence

but you can't really say what it is

not without ruining the moment

so you should just let it happen

because today everything comes together in this one coincidence which you'll look back on it,

and makes smiling and sometimes wondering what life would have been like if it hadn't happened

but not too long, because you'll just be grateful...

that it did happen

and that moment is now, at this very moment this magical moment when it's actually going to happen!

... and nothing happens!???

(I have that as well.)

learn,

we tend to worry, to plan things, and forget that,
its more important who we're with than what were doing...

play...

I've heard that it's possible to grow up - I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We get mad when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope... But after careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here’s what I've decided. There's no such thing as a grown-up. We move out, we move away from our families. But the basic insecurities, the fears and all the old wounds just grow up with us. We get bigger, taller, older. But, for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids, running around the playground, trying despertely to find friends and play...

...

Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins? Its not on the calendar, its not a birthday, its not a new year. Its an event, big or small, something that changes us. Ideally, that gives us hope, a new way of living and looking at the world, a way of letting go of old habits, old memories. What's important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning, but it's also important to remember that, amid all the crap, there are things worth holding on to.

Happy New Year 2007!!!

to my friends that aren't here, to the ones that were, to the ones i didnt see, to the ones that i did see, to my family, to everyone!!
may this year be filled with new and great things to all!!
thanxs for a great start, girls!!