2008

Well this year as i predicted was a very different year, a year where i took alot of chances, i challenged myself in many ways and i experienced new things i'd never thought possible.

It's taught me alot, like to never under estimate the power of maybe, a simple doubt can take you unexpected places and turn everything you thought controlled upside down. That being careful in the end never really helps, it just slows you down, things just simply happen for a reason and most of the times we can't control them. We're capably of anything we set our minds to, we just really have to believe so and work hard for it, nothing in life comes easily but we all need help and admitting it doesn't make us any less strong, it just proves you have people that care around, and these are the people you should always have around, your true friends.
And these are just some of themof the things, but the most important lesson i've remembered myself is simply to have faith, i have faith in God when i look up to the sky, i believe in Him.

no quieroo...

tengo que guardar mis pensamientos,

arropar mis emociones,
ignorar mis impulsos,
esconder los efectos,
pero no quierooo,
aunque tenga las fuerzas para hacerlo
no quierooo
no quierooo
y no quierooo

superstitions

Another year is coming to an end and i find myself sorrounded with supersitions, old traditions and beliefs of things we should do to receive a new year with luck, money or love but fact is superstition lies in the space between what we can control and what we can't, with no promises.
Superstitions are nothing but assumptions that an act of ignorance will get you what you wish for because people find it easier than actually working on getting it for themselves but they keep relying on them because there smart enough to know we don't have all the answers and deep down we all know life works in mysterious ways, ways we can't control.
-but i seriously doubt having 12 grapes at midight has nothing to do with the direction it might take.

Happy Holidays!!!

May you always have work for your hands to do.
May your pockets hold always a coin or two.
May the sun shine bright on your windowpane.
May the rainbow be certain to follow each rain.
May the hand of a friend always be near you.
May your days be many, your troubles be few .
May peace be within as for your heart be strong.
May you find what you're seeking wherever you roam.
And may God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you and may His blessings descend upon you always.

Happy Holidays!!

alone..

We enter the world alone and we leave it alone and everything that happens in between we owe it to ourselves to find a little company.
We need help, we need support otherwise we're in it by ourselves.

Strangers, cut off from each other then we forget just how connected we all are so instead we choose love, we choose life and for a moment we feel a little less bit alone.

-Meredith grey

teams: continuation

The thing about choosing teams in real life, it's nothing like it used to be.The game has new sets of rules, a different amount of players and being first picked can be terrifying, there's so much expectations of you, and being chosen last isn't the worst thing in the world, anymore. Others like to think there're independent, loners, mavericks that they can play the game al by themselves, eventually they realize not even the best of us can do it all alone.
Life is a team sport and you've got to get off the bench and play...
Until... someone comes along and changes the game completely.

graduation day!

invite..

sonreir!

aveces sonreir, nos olvida como escribir

se nos hace mas escaso el tiempo para pensar

y se nos escapa analizar

pero esta bien, porque sonreimos

y son escasas las carcajadas de corazon

teams

Ever as a kid wished desperately to be part of something, to join a group, to fit in?
To be in the team, one of the cool kids, the geeks, the outcast, the trendsetters, wherever we feel similarity. Looking for anything that identifies us, we crave acceptance, something that defines us, allowing us to be surrounded and excuse to get together, basically a search for company to prove we’re not alone.

But as we get older we learn a couple of things, we graduate from school and get in to college, make all sort of friends, find new interest. We’re all grown up, independent and now these things aren't suppose to matter because we have more substantial ideas, things figured out, direction and all that stuff but just when you think things are supposed to be different ...everyone joins a new team.

Tough as it is, hard to digest even that maybe your left out. I guess with time we understand
it doesn't matter, we eventually find the one you belong to or you make your own, I prefer.

damage..

Someone said: We all go through life like bulls in a china shop. A chip here, a crack there. Doing damage to ourselves, to other people.
We don't always realize we're born like this, damage is there even before we're out in this world and before we know it, we bear scars too small for us to see and pain we forget it's there. People go around pretending they dont carry scars, some believe there above it all, others carry it around like some kind of an excuse, others expect to control it, while others take up exceptional time trying to cause more of it.
Truth is some more than others we carry it from our childhood, as grown ups we give as good as we get and we set about the business of fixing whatever we can.Ultimately the best we can do, is to accept things as they are and make the best of whats handed to us.

fun!! caramelos de cianuro@hardrock

sencillo

Lo verdadero es siempre sencillo, pero solemos llegar a ello por el camino mas complicado.

por ahi...

hoy no queria despertar
de mis sabanas desaropar
ni de mi almohada despegar

no queria mis ojos abrir
hubiera preferido quedarme alli
en mis sueños por ahi

fact..

it's a fact life can drastically change in a instant, so quick you might not even notice..

2da! ruddy me dijo..

lo complicado de la vida es lo simple que es...

readY?

who ever told you in life, you'de get things when you're ready for them?
have you ever woken up ready for death? happiness, sadness, fear or love?
when have you prepared yourself for it?
did you ever know it was coming?
who gave you the test?
i think it all works the opposite you get things and eventually you learn to deal..
it's like someone said that life gives you the test first, then teaches the lesson
i guess its part of living, not being ready
the surprise of it all and how it all changes in a moment
shaking around all the safe things we had and breaking all our plans.
but not everybody get's it, they spend their life waiting to get things exactly when they ask for them, preparing themselves for the what they want and expecting to be ready and but
truth is we lose the greatest things in life this way, expecting to be prepared, when life hands you the unexpected.

the night...

The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming.

-Twoface

The dark knight

2008

no es possible

no es possible que solo sea yo

la que te deseo

que anhele aquellos momentos

no puede ser que estas ganas

sean solo mias

que recuerde esos dias

no es possible

porque aveces cuando

menos los espero

cierro los ojos

y te siento

si!

si supieras que si,

que si quiero

quiero estar

aunque sea de a raticos

aunque tenga que acostumbrarme

cambiar mis caritas

y entender

si, si quieroo

aunque no sea tan facil

aunque no pueda hacer promesas

pero si quiero

quiero intentar.

pretendo por siempre

pretendo por siempre ser pequeña
no perder la esencia

ni mucho menos mi inocencia

pero sin mi picardía ocultar

pretendo por siempre esperar
nunca cansarme de soñar
sin rendirme al jugar
y nunca dejar de bailar.

pretendo por siempre creer
nunca perder la fe
hacer música al pasar
mil fantasías imaginar
e incontables travesuras inventar.

quote

Sometimes, the truth isn't good enough, sometimes people deserve more. Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.

-Batman
The dark knight
2008

music the answer..

music is the answer
to your problems
keep on grooving then you can solve them
if you feel like you can take no more
and feel like heading for the door
then keep on dancing and prancing
grooving keep on moving
try it, stop the crying
choosing while you crusing
music is the answer.....

chaos!

Chaos! CHAOS! chaos! it's like it all turned upside except for us, clearly acknowledging murphy's impecable law.

Murphy's law broadly states "if anything can go wrong, it will."

Also cited as: "If there's more than one possible outcome of a job or task, and one of those outcomes will result in disaster or an undesirable consequence, then somebody will do it that way"; "Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong"; or, and at the worst possible time, in the worst possible way".

pa Loremi

right now..

guessing!

as we wait for answers
guessing is part of the process
wondering where, for how long and how much
the why, the who, and the what
its all we do..
make up excuses,
render explanations
exhausting ourselves
with unnecessary things that are
all just suppositions
a compiled emotion of doubt,
seeking an understanding
an complex interpretation,
all together,
its all just us, uselessly guessing!

simple..

It's all very simple. Pleasure is good. And twice as much pleasure is better. That pain is bad. And no pain is better. And reality is different. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something. And there is only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomachache. And maybe that's okay. Maybe that's exactly what we need.

-meredith grey

hay sensaciones que,
aunque intentemos,
no se esconden...

todo pasará..

piérdete en el sonido
escucha el ruido
mueve tus sentidos
olvida todo lo demás
grita si lo necesitas
sacúdete las heridas
que ya todo terminará
todo pasará...

ignore..

Learning to ignore things is one of the great paths to inner peace.

— Robert J. Sawyer

misplaced

Ever find yourself in a familiar place a lil' bit confused?
That you seem to know where you are, and you're trying to remember where, but you can't quite figure it out, as if you're lost.. uhm no, you're not exactly lost, its more like misplaced, as if you misplaced yourself.
Everythings fine, theres no tragedies, things are flowing none the less you're in a hurry and can't exactly move or decide which direction to take, cause you can't find yourself.
Annoyed and desperate hours later of searching every corner within, moving stuff around, reorganizing junk and trying to remember where you left yourself. You give up, stay put and you have 2 options either bring yourself down, complaign about how you can't possibly remember something so essential or you make the best of it, grab a close ice cream and enjoy wholly.
Surprisinly if you take the road less traveled, you reach your back pocket and notice its right there!!!! right in your pocket all along and it all becomes clearer, but now you're not in such a hurry, cause you've found a whole new set of things to do and things makes more sense now.

Ever find yourself misplaced in the familiarest place of all?
see i have and i know eventually it all summens up to the basics,
but in ocasions all we want is to complaign and spoil ourselves a bit, and then remember that eventually...

magic

"Magic is believing in yourself, if you can do that, you can make ."

"Whatever you think you can do or believe you can do, begin! Action has magic, grace and power in it."

"Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion."

"There's a bit of magic in everything, and some loss to even things out."

"This world, after all our sciences, is still a miracle; wonderful, inscrutable, magical and more, to whosoever will think of it."

"The thing with magic is. You've got to know it's here, all around us, or it just stays invisible for you."

secrets...

No matter how good you are at keeping a secrets, they can't hide for long. They have a special way of exposing themselves and stripping us bare. They take control over us and seem to always find a way to pile up more until your so full of them you feel like you're going to burst.
The problem with secrets is whatever it is we're trying to hide, we're never ready for that moment when the truth gets naked and when you think you're in control, you're not."

If we decide to keep secrets is up to us, but its like meredith said:
"The thing we forget is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open, like it or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore."

questions

how do we control the uncontrollable?
how do we tame what's within?
or can we change it?
is it worth it?
do we want to?
can we manage?
is their some kind of process?
do we really wanna try?
can we handle the results?
are they interchangeable?
perhaps unreversable?
but is it all administrable?

acceptance..

every situation and grief have 4 steps:

denial

anger

depression

acceptance

we should all be so clever to jump straight to the 4rth,
and avoid all the other unnessary, painful obstacles in the way
and simply accept things and hold on, the solution is in your hands.

imitation

imitation is the best form of flattery....

tonight..

wonder..

Don't wonder why people go crazy. Wonder why they don't. In face of what we can lose in a day, in an instant, wonder what the hell it is that make us hold it together.
-meredith grey

Chin up.
Put your shoulders back.
Walk proud.
Strut a little.
Don't lick your wounds: celebrate them.
The scars you bear are the signs of a competitor.
You're in a lion fight.
Just because you didn't win doesn't mean you don't know how to roar.

surreal

its surreal,
all of this:

this moment,

this call,

this day,

this dream come true..

its all so surreal
to share this with u
to watch words come to life
to finally have what you wanted!

=)

para ti, para nosotras...

Say - John Mayer

Take all of your wasted honor.
Every little past frustration.
Take all of your so called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations.

Say what you need to say (x8)

Walkin' like a one man army,
Fightin' with the shadows in your head.
Livin' up the same old moment
Knowin' you'd be better off instead
If you could only...

Say what you need to say (x8)

Have no fear for givin' in.
Have no fear for giving over.
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much,
than never to say what you need to say again.

Even if your hands are shaking,
And your faith is broken.
Even as the eyes are closin',
Do it with a heart wide open.

Say what you need to say (x7)

Say what you need to,
Say what you need to...
Say what you need to say.

cerca..

te saque de la monotonia

y celebramos tu triunfo
compartimos un rato
hablamos un poco
tomaste mi mano

y me diste un abrazo.

no todo esta bien
pero mas cerca estamos ....

una cancion...

no te a pasado que en el momento mas extraño y menos esperado la vida te regala una cancion?
te dedica las letras con una melodia que curiosamente te identifica?
tomando una cancion antes escuchada pero que ahora se vuelve tuya?
que curioso no?

me dejo llevar..

me dejo llevar por el viento
volar con lo que siento
correr con el tiempo
y abrazar el momento.

me dejo llevar por el viento
recojer el terreno
conocer sus misterios
y escuchar sus secretos

me dejo llevar por el viento
inventando aventuras
compartiendo emociones
conociendo temores
y cometiendo locuras..

pense

tu palabras
me hacen pensar
en que es lo realmente piensas
sera que yo pense que eras mi amigo
y tu peinsas que soy compania?

pensar que pienses eso
no me deja ni pensar
porque pense que sabias
pense que eras mas...

sentir que ya no siento..

sentir que ya no siento
me hace sonreir
me deja recordar
me confirma que puedo,
que todo lo dije es cierto
que nada es imposible

sentir que ya no siento
me enorgullece
me deja perdonar
me recuerda los momentos,
que ahora no afectan
que todo evoluciona

sentir que ya no siento
me reafirma que siento
me da consuelo
me llena de fuerzas
para sentir de nuevo

todo se transforma...

Cada uno da lo que recibe
y luego recibe lo que da,
nada es mas simple,
no hay otra norma:
nada se pierde,
todo se transforma.

-Jorge Drexler

anoche..

anoche te llame
nose como
pero lo hice.
justo cuando hablaba de ti,
apareciste...

hubiera querido
buscar tus manos
y decirte tanto
pero no lo hice
no tuve tiempo.

grace..

I'm on my knees /only memories/are left for me to hold/Dont know how /but Ill get by/Slowly pull myself together/Theres no escape/So keep me safe/ This feels so unreal/Nothing comes easily/Fill this empty space /Nothing is like it seems/Turn my grief to grace/I feel the cold/oneliness unfold/Like from another world/Come what may/I wont fade away/But I know I might change/Nothing comes easily /Fill this empty space/Nothing is like it was/Turn my grief to grace/Nothing comes easily/Where do I begin?/Nothing can bring me peace/Ive lost everything /I just want to feel your embrace

rando

i cant find the words to define that night, u managed to make it more than magical, filled with intesity and your mischieviousness, i can't explain how i felt.
only that it took me back to that place we're once only you and the guitar played.

te quiero amigo

Vision

Vision without action is a dream.

Action without vision is simply passing the time.

Action with Vision is making a positive difference.
--Joel Barker

hard..

everything in this life worth having, takes up work, patience, dedication and improvisation. and its hard!! but all we need is to believe cause nothing magnificent has ever been achieved by those who dont believe, but by those who dare and who know inside their superior to circumstance. and thats harder!! but to remember at times that there are no mistakes in getting what u want, only things we bring upon ourselves that are neccesarry in order for us to learn and reach the places we've chosen to go , uff this is the hardest!!! and although people can bring you down and help u give up, always remember one of the greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you can't do! and thats the best part.

con robi!

...

people wanna be tough, its all about their pride and being rough around the edges and hardcore or at least thats what they want u to think. we find it so hard to ask for help unless its absolutely necessary. but deep down it isn’t just about being tough it’s about acceptance, about giving yourself permision to let your guard down, as long as you choose your moments wisely and about allowing yourself to be close to someone.
when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. be ourselves and let go at times but we tend to keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, to act as if nothing ever means anything, but it's usually a load of bull.
i really think we should pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, stick close by, no matter how much we hurt them or the circumstances.
the people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping
and sure, sometimes close can be too close.
but sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.

i..

i left out so many things
i held on too strong
i set u free
i never thought it would end like this
theres always time for everything in life
but its easier to run than fight
i guess

a gift..

pain

Pain,
you just have to ride it out,
hope it goes away on its own,
hope the wound that caused it heals.
There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside.
Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.

-meredith grey

...

La mayor rémora de la vida es la espera del mañana y la pérdida del día de hoy.

let it be..

..and when the night is cloudy,
there is still a light that shines on me,
shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
i wake up to the sound of music
whisper words of wisdom, let it be
there will be an answer, let it be.
let it be...

-the beatles

hiding..

casted away

caught up
so much to do

not enough time

wrapped in papers

camouflaging thoughts

feelings in disguise

masks of uncertainty

stealing yourself away

seem familiar?

ur'e hiding!

to better days and get aways!

to great friends
and irreplaceable feelings
to coutless laughs
and incredible memories
to the unexpected
and unforgetable moments
to better days and get aways!

betrayal..

Betrayal is at times not intended, misunderstood and complicated.
In some ways, betrayal is inevitable.
But when we betray each other, it all becomes a blur, we lose track and the path to recovery is less clear. We do whatever it takes to rebuild the trust that was lost, to fix what we broke or to find the way back.
Then we try to make up for what we did, find forgiveness and try to heal open wounds but there are some wounds, some betrayals... that are so deep, so profound that there is no way to repair what was lost. And when that happens, there's nothing left to do but wait... eventually time heals, i believe!

es posible...

es posible que robes mis suenos
que vuelvas tuyos momentos ajenos
que falsifiques emociones
que juegues a la ignorancia
que alegues indiferencia
y que sufras de amnesia

es posible que encuentres cumplirlos
que te aduenes de ellos
que manipules tus sentimientos
que ganes desprecio
que encuentres desaire
detras de tu arrogancia
que ya no encuentres lo que tanto despreciaste
y no te quede mas que rendirte

y es posible que todo esto te abrume
que llene tus dias de humillaciones
y que el dolor sea irreconciliable
que reconozcas tu errores
que estes preparado para lo que viene
que entiendas que te lo mereces
que esperes lo peor.

y es posible que lo logres
que tranquilizes las cosas
y encuentres como aquietarte
pero de nada te sirve..
pretender ser valiente
reclamar afecto
forzar aliento
y exigir consuelo
si pretendes volver hacerlo

march 8

hoy fue tan facil sonreir, hasta las estrellas salieron para mi.
haciendo de mi dia una aventura que solo yo conoci...

thank u...